Three Meetings

And by the third, I agreed to give her everything.

In that place

It was at this place on this ground that would be the end of the line for one and a half million of them.

I hate the people who did this to them. I hate those people as much if not more than they hated the people they killed here. My hatred for them is fierce. It is ugly, it is vile. It smells like that of a corpse rotting in feces that feeds the maggots that turn into flies. It is putrid and rank this hate that I have for those people.

In the end I am no better or worse than the people that committed the attrocities over 60 years ago. My hatred makes me just like them. No different in anyway. The only difference is that I have not committed any of those attrocities.

I don't want all this hatred burning in me.
It's something from which it's so hard to be free.
And all of the tears that we cry in sorrow or rage
could make any difference or turn back the page.

To that Place

I am going to go there.
I am going to stand on that ground
I am going to where the end of the line was
I am going to stand on that ground
where one and half million people stood
as their lives neared their ends.
And I am going to stand on or right beside
the ground where their lives did end.
I am going to go to witness.
I am going to get as close to that little boy as I can
I will be with that little boy again.
I will hold him and I promise not to leave him.
I was him and he is me.

My Promise to You

I will walk with you through the gate
I will be with you
I will be by your side all the time
You can hold my hand and never let it go
It will always be there.
I will hold you
I will carry you
And when it comes time
I will walk in with you
I will hold you tight
As the tears run down our faces
I will hold you tight
I will never let you go
And as we stand there waiting
I will give you a kiss
and as the showers are turned on
I will hold you tight
I will be with you for eternity.

It's all starting to come back to me now

Like the horrendous macabre nightmare that it was

I was hearded out of the box car like cattle. At the time I wasn't even old enought to know what cattle were. There was no one there with me. Even with all the people all around me, no one was there for me. Into the camp I walked

Freedom from Hatred

In effect: if you have a resentment you want to be free of, if you will pray for the person or the thing you resent then you will be free. If you will ask in prayer for everything you want for yourself to be given to them, you will be free. Ask for their health, their prosperity, there happiness, and you will be free. Even when you don’t really want it for them and your prayers are only words and you don’t mean it, go ahead, and do it anyway. Do it everyday for two weeks and you will find you have come to mean it and to want it for them and you will realize that where you used to feel bitterness and resentment and hatred, you now feel compassionate understanding, and love.

It worked for me then, and it has worked for me many times since, and it will work for me every time I am willing to work it. Sometimes I have to ask first for the willingness, but it too always comes. And because it works for me, it will work for all of us. As another great man says, “The only real freedom a human being can ever know is doing what you ought to do because you wan to do it.”

She stopped coming around

He went another direction.

Years later she tried to find him again but he was gone.

i CAN'T STAND THIS HATRED THAT'S BURNING IN ME

My Rage Overwhelms Me

Here is a guy that never cried

The Essence of Evil

Die Scheidungpapiere

Andy,
Die Scheidungpapiere sind zu Ihnen eingeordnet worden und verschickt worden. Sie sollten sie über die regelmäßige Post empfangen, die zur späten folgenden Woche mittler ist, die Woche von 3. Juli. Sie haben bis 17. Juli durchzuführen, unterzeichnen Sie und bringen Sie die Formen zurück. Ich ließ eine Anzeige mit MJ, hopefully she was able to talk with you before you get this email.
Ich auch benannte MJ und legte ein Telefongespräch für Dienstag, den 11. Juli 12:00 Denver zur Zeit fest. Ich habe zurück nicht von ihr gehört, also weiß ich nicht, wenn dieses auf diesem Datum geschieht. I will check my cell messages while I'm away in case you two decide on a time. -Ronda