#Cancer

If anyone were to watch me they would notice that when I get into work in the morning the first thing I do is make an americano with four shots of espresso.  Then at somepoint they would see me go to the vending machine and get a strawberry poptart, that is, if the vending machine has them.  During the morning they would observe me take two extra strength walgreens head ache relief quick gel caps with acetaminophen, aspirin, and caffeine and three softgel Ibuprofens.  Occasionally one might witness me going to the wash sink near the coffee maker to and drink a 12oz environmentally sustainable disposable insulated cup of water.

I think my wife is dying and I don't know what to do.  It is extremely dark inside my head.