We went to CTCA for the last time today. It was kind of a big day. She was going to tell the doctor that she was not going to do anymore chem and she felt like she was going to be "going it alone." She was afraid I wouldn't support her. I support her. We had our heart to heart sort of over two weeks ago on our 3rd wedding anniversary. I told her that I realized that she was not going to get better and that I was accepting the end. Not only was she surprised to hear this; She was relieved as well. I was surprised she was relieved. I was also surprised that she still thought that I thought she would get cured or that I thought she could be treated such that the disease would go back into remission. I didn't want to give up hope but I had to be realistic.
She explained to the doctor she didn't want to continue with chemo anymore. The doctor then countered with, "I don't think it is worth it to continue with the chemo. You should work on enjoying life as much as possible." Something to that effect. Wendy then asked about a dental appt on the 24th of November. She asked if it would be safe for the dentist or dental hygienist to work on her gums. When undergoing chemo therapy the gums become very sensitive to damage and can get infected easily. The doctor responded by telling her that she really wouldn't need a dental appt on the 24th. The following are two videos of that day.
The beginning of the day
The beginning of the day
The end of the day
This was our last trip to CTCA (Cancer Treatment Centers of America)
