Really? She didn't post that did she?

Yup, She did!

I still keep going back to look.  Not at that particular post, but at subsequent posts.  The guy was someone who helped her set up a bike for a ride.  When I left (for Alaska) she had texted me a question about OA and liked a couple of my posts.  I thought it was kinda cool because I was up in Colorado at Ronda's house and she is always on her phone texting here I was texting with Valerie.  I felt good.  I was on Valerie's radar.  Then, in Alaska, I went incommunicado.  When I got back into cell phone range, I saw a post.  

"How'd it go?"

"Dating a really tall man; I am having lucid dreams of sucking face with the sky."

Something like that.  How awesome.  How nice to see that.  So I go through subsequent posts and see him like or love every post of her's - from personal posts of her and her son in Minnesota (that is where she is now) to memes about "Life."

However there is something that takes the edge off and that is Barbara.  Probably haven't heard (or read) much about her in this.

Barbara is an older lady who I knew when I was first in recovery.  This is kind of ironic because my interaction with her is anything but recovery.  But then of course my interaction with Valerie is anything but recovery.

Barbara first shows up in

https://book-of-floyd.blogspot.com/2018/06/the-shit-that-has-gone-down-since-end.html

We kinda got together maybe back in March.  We would go out to eat every so often and then one night at dinner she asks if we could do friends with benefits.  More time goes by and we finally do FWB but it is kind of a disaster and she IM's me the next day saying she really needs to have connection and she can not do the FWB which I am okay with.  That was probably mid June.

Then I go to Alaska.  I get back. She asks me over and then we go for it.  I mean go for it.  We seriously fucked.  It was much better than the first time.

The problem with Barbara is she can really go off the rails.  I really don't want to piss her off.  But, no, I don't have "connection" with her.  Plus she is moving.  Not sure whether she actually will.  I am actually supposed to go over there tonight.  I was supposed to go over Sunday night but she canceled.

A number of months ago, after a meeting, I told her we would remain friends no matter what.  Jokingly I then said we would remain acquaintances no matter what.  I really need to keep it at acquaintances.  I should have not friended her on facebook - bad fucking idea.