Under Attack

Without provocation (or maybe with?) I am under complete attack.  It is fucking fierce.  It just seemed to come on. I had just completed writing about the last system for this manual I am working on and was beginning to start make screen shots isolating these various systems to complement the descriptions.  And then out of the clear blue sky I could hear the whooshing in the distance and then there they were.

It is said that the best way to fight them is to not engage, but I did.  Once the engagement starts I always end up getting burned.  Just as I feel as though I am winning, I lose horribly.  I lay there naked and torn to pieces.  A lot of times I get up and engage again and the might dragons are all too willing to come back.  This can happen up to nine to ten times until I am completely spent, empty with only a hollow shell.

The attack today is huge.  I feel as though I am ready to engage completely without a thread of armor.  My best bet now is to engage but not fully.

I think I avoided complete engagement and thus complete annihilation.  I did get reinforcements.  Kelli came into help.  We are talking right now.  Strategizing.  She is but doesn't know it.  I think they come for her too but she is always able to avoid the attack by doing what she is doing now and that talking with me or talking with other people or being with other people.  Me on the other hand I can't seem to get an army together.  I am kind of stranded.

The killer thing is they can show up right now as I am talking with her.  I have engaged even while talking with her.  I actually find myself inviting them in.  I miss them and when they are gone for a while I want them to come back.

This is a problem.