It feels so hopeless.

Nov 29 9:29am

Hi Valerie, Hoping you're still wanting go for a walk on Sunday. Not sure about the weather but it rarely is an issue for me. We could do the same hike as last time or if you have another place in mind. . . Hope you are having a wonderful morning.

Nov 29 3:23pm

Andy,
I struggled with what was the “right” way to bring this to you. After giving myself some space to think about it i don’t feel comfortable going hiking this Sunday. I’m needing to shift gears from dating and go back to friendship. I’m in deep need of focusing on my program. I apologize for not coming to this realization before asking you out in the first place. I do still want to be friends and talk like we have been if you are still willing. And please know it’s not about my interest in you. In fact you are the only person I have dated since my marriage that has seemed safe, healthy and where it had potential to go anywhere. Unfortunately I just also happen to be aware of the fact that I am not safe, healthy or right in this moment.
Sincerely,
Valerie
P.S. I work Saturday so I’m hoping we will have time to maybe chat before the meeting

Nov 29 3:31pm

Valerie, I understand. I am still willing to talk when you want to of course. Thanks.

Nov 29 3:37pm

Thank you, Andy. That means a lot to me. I wanted to call or say it in person but even sending the txt had me in tears. Which is the same reason I decided going on the hike this weekend is not a good idea. I just came to this conclusion today.
I have been quite the emotional train wreck this past week and a half.

Nov 29 4:16pm

Sure, don't worry about the crying thing. I hope you don't feel so bad that you wouldn't want to talk to me at the meeting if there is time. It's okay.

Nov 29 3:51pm

No no. Just me and my disease imploding and over explaining everything. I’ll talk to you soon.