Hubris

A man's been murdered

and another man has killed himself... 

...yet this boy remains silent.

What wanton hubris is this? 

Look at the previous 4 or 5 posts from earlier this week.  I feel like a complete fool.  This thing has made a fool out of me.  I was likening my addiction to the dragon fantasy.  I thought that by writing about it creatively I could really fight this thing and win!!!!

I thought, "I am writing about it and so .   .    .  yeah.   .   . I am writing about it.  Yeah man!!!! and so. . . . uh. . . . yeah."  Like some kinda teenage kid who has the world by the balls only to look back years later in complete bewilderment.

Thinking that we're getting older and wiser

When we're just getting old

In fact I confided in my therapist and was just about ready to tell her some of the worst.  And that very night after the appt (last Tues) I went completely off the rails.  I haven't met up with anybody yet but I have been soooooo fucking close.