Tuesday, May 09, 2006

Tried and I tried

but I don't understand
Never seemed to work out the way I had it planned

I find myself looking at a future that is one I had not envisioned. In fact right now, I can’t envision the future at all. I simply do not know what to envision. My mind keeps trying to grapple with this and it just can’t. I stand in this doorway looking out and all I see are unrecognizable faint images enshrouded by the glare of very white bright light. Nothing is clear at this point. Nothing is familiar. I have a lot of fear.

God,

I give myself to thee to do with me as thou wilt. Relieve me from the bondage of self so that I may better serve you. Please take away my troubles as victory over them would bare witness to all those I would help of thy power, thy love, and thy way of life may I do thy will always!

-amen

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