Sometimes my breath

is taken away when I realize the magnitude of my lose. I am looking at something I can't quite fully comprehend. However, I do get glimpses and those glimpses are terrifying. The glimpses take my breath away almost like a cut to my gut. Once the air begins to return to my lungs the picture of horror is so immense that I have to turn away. I am left with this sense of emptiness. I want something to fill it. The only thing I can put there is God.