To the ex

Sometimes I wonder if you are in pain.
Sometimes I wonder if you just like people to think you are in pain.
Although you don't act as if you are in pain.
Nothing that you writen even hints that you are in pain.

Not like some things that I have read recently.

I am in pain.
Sometimes.
I anesthetise my pain with my addiction.
only the milder forms these days.
Thank You God.